usually when you finish your finals, you catch yourself singing "school's out for the summer, school's out forever" in your head, but instead i found myself chanting, "r-u-double-d-e-r-v-i-l-l-e, rudderville, hey, hey rudderville." why do i find myself chanting one of the cheers from my middle school? (which happened to be located in a town called, "rudderville uncorporated," population:234, but only on school days) maybe it's some form of repression.
i was cleaning out my room today, packing up some of the winter things that i wouldn't need this summer, i sat down and decided that no one can leave. the ones who are getting married, the girls that are going on missions, the other people whose names i keep a secret locked in my heart. i have made it a law that no one is allowed to leave me ever again. queen erica strikes again!
but as our wise Lord of the Rings writer once said,
i think we always knew that eventually all of our paths would lead different ways, but we were never prepared for it. we were never prepared to leave each other. or maybe it's just me. everyone else seems to give each other up so easily.
all the memories come flooding back at once, the reasons why you're going to miss all of them. and maybe it's because today is your best friend's birthday, and for the first time, you are in Provo and she is in Spain.
or maybe you heard a little mermaid song, and you remember everyone getting ready together on sunday mornings, singing practically every disney song invented.
or maybe it was when you were playing with your roommate's baby sister, and you realize that all of your roommates families became your family, too, so you are losing much more than just friends.
but now, we're done wallowing in self-pity because we're sad, and this is the last you'll hear of it! because even though we all have to go our separate ways, in about 2 years we will see each other again, and i can't even imagine how wonderful it will be. the people we will have become, the things we will have done. it's going to be extraordinary!
"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life and in change there is power."
ready for a new adventure?
or maybe you heard a little mermaid song, and you remember everyone getting ready together on sunday mornings, singing practically every disney song invented.
or maybe it was when you were playing with your roommate's baby sister, and you realize that all of your roommates families became your family, too, so you are losing much more than just friends.
but now, we're done wallowing in self-pity because we're sad, and this is the last you'll hear of it! because even though we all have to go our separate ways, in about 2 years we will see each other again, and i can't even imagine how wonderful it will be. the people we will have become, the things we will have done. it's going to be extraordinary!
"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life and in change there is power."
ready for a new adventure?
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